pressing

why is it always that the days when i have the most pressing deadlines are also the days i find myself doing things like posting to the blog? there is some sort of strange pull i feel away from responsibility even as it bears down on me.

is it some way of reminding myself that the circumstantial reality before me is not the ultimate reality and calling on my life? is it some way of attempting to exert control over a situation which really controls me? is it an attempt to live truly as a VigilantePoet, defying the establishment?

or is it simply a lingering childhood trait i learned along the way?